SMALL KINE HIPPIE

Lately, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking.

About the future. About the present. About my upcoming birthday, when I’ll be turning 25 (eek!) and exiting the carefree years of my early twenties. Somehow, I feel like I should be more of an adult. Yet part of me still feels so free.

Literally and figuratively, I find myself at a turning point. As I enter the next few years of my life, I’m unsure of how, where and with whom I’d like to spend them. I like my current office job and adore the people I work with, yet it doesn’t fulfill me the way writing does. They say you should pursue what you do to procrastinate from real life; in my case, fitness, travel and writing are all equal first loves. But how could I turn a few hobbies into a fulfilling, financially sound career?

I continually come back to the same answers, regardless of the question. I would love to spend my life writing, helping others with fitness and nutrition, and traveling whenever I can. That’s what I want. But I didn’t go to school for it, I have bills to pay, and live in one of the most expensive places in the country.

This past year has been inexplicably tough, and filled with more ups and downs than I could ever imagine. However, the hardships have come with gifts attached – I now have the ability, education and freedom to build the exact life I want.

I’m unsure of whether or not its possible, but I am absolutely determined to try my best.The only true failure is to not try in the first place, right? I’m blessed to have a strong support system to catch me if I did fall, but I have faith that I’m on the right path, as scary as it may be right now.

No matter our goals or what our metaphorical ‘fork in the road’ may be, we can all benefit from failure. It’s always scary to try something new. It’s always terrifying to leave our comfort zones, financial security, and support network in search of something greater. Failure is only one outcome; and there’s always the possibility that we will find ourselves, find success, and build the life we’ve always dreamed of but never thought we’d achieve.

If I have to move to another island, state, or country, if I have to leave everything I know, spend all my savings to invest in my future, or forgo some of the luxuries I’ve been lucky enough to enjoy – so be it. This is my path, and as long as I go forth with faith and effort, I will get to where I need to be. Even if it’s not where I thought I’d end up when I started this journey.

Here’s a little motivation to get you through to your goals, whatever they may be 🙂

Love,

Nikki